Well… I just had a proper meltdown. As in an ADHD/Autistic meltdown. What does that look like? You might ask. You might not ask… I’m going to tell you anyway, because they’re kind of interesting, and I think people don’t really understand them. They’re not amazing, let me tell you. I mean, if you were
I’ve known about Shame for some years. Ever since I watched Brene Brown’s TED talk years ago (which, let’s face it, is probably a lot of people’s introduction to the concept)… But I didn’t really “get” it at the time. A lot of emotions are easy to understand intuitively… Anger? I know what it’s like
It’s official! I’ve got ADHD and definite traits of autism. Fuck. I mean… Good. Fine. I’m over it. Am I though? I am, I think, at peace with the ADHD. Hell… I made a show about it last year and have experienced great joy, love, and friendship connecting with people who are also neurodivergent. Accepting
It might seem strange to say, but I have never really felt like a Man. I am a man. By biological, cultural, and gender identity perspectives. I’m also (as far as I’m aware, I haven’t really explored but am never closed to exploration in life) fairly firmly heterosexual… so I am a straight, white, cisgender
It’s official… I’m a masochist… I have just begun another 1-2 year launch into academia, in the form of a professional MA in Voice Studies at the Voice Study Centre. Why would I subject myself to this sort of intense intellectual wankery? Haven’t I spent enough of my life being pissed off by the hugely
A thing just happened to me that hasn’t happened in a while… … a thing that I quite appreciate happens to me… … a thing that is welcomingly jarring… I was misgendered. As a short man with long hair, this happens every so often. Someone (almost always a male, I hazard to say), approaches me
It’s been a while since I wrote a blog about my time here at Gaulier. I should, I suppose, be writing reams of text by now… as I have only one module left (Shakespeare/Chekov), which starts in 3 weeks. This term, I have had my biggest crisis since the first time I stepped into my
Yesterday, in class, Gaulier did an exercise that I tend to think of as one of his “Philippe creates a Moment of Theatre”/”master puppeteer directing” exercises. This is a moment I’ve seen him create in class now many times. It usually goes like this… A student is on stage doing an exercise or a piece
I have a lot to write about that I haven’t yet! I’m now 3 weeks into Le Jeu at Ecole Philippe Gaulier (the second time I’ve done this module) Why haven’t I written? Well, partly I’ve just been having fun. A core driver here at the school is “You must feel pleasure! If you do
Hello Friend. Welcome to Earth. This planet is a weird place. Probably one of the weirdest in the entire galaxy (though don’t tell the inhabitants of Alpha Centuri I said that, as they have won “The Weirdest Planet Award” for the last millenia and they get uppity about that type of thing… but Earth didn’t
