Well… I just had a proper meltdown. As in an ADHD/Autistic meltdown. What does that look like? You might ask. You might not ask… I’m going to tell you anyway, because they’re kind of interesting, and I think people don’t really understand them. They’re not amazing, let me tell you. I mean, if you were
I’ve known about Shame for some years. Ever since I watched Brene Brown’s TED talk years ago (which, let’s face it, is probably a lot of people’s introduction to the concept)… But I didn’t really “get” it at the time. A lot of emotions are easy to understand intuitively… Anger? I know what it’s like
It’s official! I’ve got ADHD and definite traits of autism. Fuck. I mean… Good. Fine. I’m over it. Am I though? I am, I think, at peace with the ADHD. Hell… I made a show about it last year and have experienced great joy, love, and friendship connecting with people who are also neurodivergent. Accepting
It’s been a while since I wrote a blog about my time here at Gaulier. I should, I suppose, be writing reams of text by now… as I have only one module left (Shakespeare/Chekov), which starts in 3 weeks. This term, I have had my biggest crisis since the first time I stepped into my
I have a lot to write about that I haven’t yet! I’m now 3 weeks into Le Jeu at Ecole Philippe Gaulier (the second time I’ve done this module) Why haven’t I written? Well, partly I’ve just been having fun. A core driver here at the school is “You must feel pleasure! If you do
The other day, I was talking to my dad when I was having a moment of intense self-criticism about some basic life-admin thing I’d failed to do. He reflected back about the show I have just finished doing at the Edinburgh Fringe “Alex Owen-Hill Asks Himself ‘Is It ADHD?’” “You created such a loving environment
A simple question to recalibrate your current situation: “Aside from my thoughts, am I okay?” (I read this in James Clear’s newsletter)
Reflection after Bouffons course at Gaulier. If you were to ask me what I’ve learned so far over the last 4 weeks, I’d list a bunch of insights and ideas around on-stage performance skills. But an emotional theme to my experience? My top candidate is: Rejection. Why rejection? Of all the mental and emotional ups
Day 7 of Bouffons at Gaulier I’ve gone a bit off the rails with my summaries of the learning this past week. I’m not going to lie– I mean, why would I lie? I never do, I’m compulsively honest… something that is actually an issue here at Gaulier where lying is “part of the game”
I’m scared. Today. Tomorrow I may have another emotion. Today, it’s fear. Emotions are ephemeral, so I don’t expect that this is forever – experience shows that it will change. A lot is going on in my life this year. I mean, a lot always goes on in my life. That is the nature of
